closeness

hey u peeps....


I have been neglecting my blog...not updating it...i was pretty busy (not!!)...am now a legal guardian to 3 boys...(parents went for haj so am here..being a big sister thingy!!)

Life has been pretty busy...with all things..all sorts of things...running errands...

Thots....*wonders*

What is wrong if you are close to someone?? I have a fren..they've been close since lama dah lah...but the thing is people thot there's sumthin goin on...am not saying there's sumthin wrong with it...but what u see is totally different...I heard someone said "people can see wht u cant see!!"...well, how are we suppose to correct this??i mean, how to prove tht there's nuthin, just a fren-fren thingy??wht does my fren have to do??please help.....

Is it wrong if u r furious with wht ur close fren have done to u??macam neglecting u..just because ia ada gf??is it??yes??No??He's been doin lost of things to u tht made u sakit hati brabiz....blocked u from MSN....sialan jua tu!!Nada cali tu geng...so salah kah if we marah??but a fren of mine thinks it's absurd...why should we be furious..he has chosen his life to be like that..so just be it...but i hate tht!!!is this how he/she values our friendship???hmmm....don't know what else to say lagi....

Last Tuesday, we were at the airport sending my aunt and family naik haji...sedih ehhh...i'v e been with them lama before they leave for haj!!I cried....everybody cried.....dari rumah dah kami nangis...and di airport jua....huaaahuaahuaaa.....

I miss my mum and dad!!!i miss my man!!! i Miss U soooooo much.......(missy wissy thingy!!!)mengusut lah tu!!!

It's been fun staying at my aunt's ani...the boys has been very good...their friends has been very supportive...malar saja ke rumah...supaya inda sunyi lah tu...my granniez slalu drop-by kemari jua....mcm warden kali ah!!!!huhuhu....*jahat*...

anywezzzz....i'll have to go now...have yet to do sumthin such as watch dvds.....apa kan tu ah??sibuk tah tu???

I'll get back to this again sometime....

To My dearest Uda (both)...."Happy Anniversary...."

*muAhzz*

toooodlllleee looooo...........

What's Happening??

It's been a few days that I heard of soooo many many things....[sob stories especially!!]

I have been thinking how do u peeps consider a fren as a Real Fren??Sometimes a fren can be a "pain"...but there are times that u look for them..wanting them to be a listener..someone tht u can say anythin..swear..shout at..A real fren will alwez be there for you...whenever u need them..it's like a 24x7 thingy..And i do realised tht there's a few of us tht keeps changing our Frenz..(why??)Its becoz tht frenz do quarrel..argue..talk behind ur back (this is a normal thingy!! and am not surprised!!)

As for myself.., i do lave lots of them...LOADS...but none (bedusta jua tu ah!!), only a few of them whom I think as a Real fren..(how sad is that??)It makes me wonder sometimes what happened to all of my frenz??Where are they??Why are they doing this??so on and so on....*sigh*...

Oh Yeah!!!I read one blog regarding affairs (well..,this blogger did wrote abt Friends too!!hehehe..)...It is so nothing new in this world..Hey, don't talk abt married ones..those still not married (yng masih berbf/gf pun ada affair jua...) It's the extra thingy tht you get from the extra ones..Huhuhu...(I think some people agree ni!!) but if you don't,it doesn't really matter though...It's your say peeps...ANyway., Why?? Some might say it's the attention tht you're not getting from the other party...some will say because they have problems (e.g Financially...(it's the 1st one tht i could think of!!)..maybe for some, it's just to have the fun...FUN??!!...It feels so good to be loved by someone..hey!! there are a few good things and bad things yea!! Question(s): How does the married ones deal wif all this??Juggling their life between the wifey and the Girl??What if there's a problem??Come to think of it.., if they lied to the wifey..,do u think they won't lie to the gf??*sigh*...i don't know...(I pray & hope for the best/good things to happen in my Life!!AMIN)

It is so interesting to have all these thoughts..but sometime membari sakit kepala jua ah...Ntah leee...(sudah atu, kiranya mcm nda lagi kan tepikir lah ah!!Ngalih lah sudah my brain tu..!!)

Anyway peeps.., I leave this as it is...I shall THINK of other THINGS again!!...

*tooodle looooo*

*mMuahz*...

perfect

Perfect

as we all know...No one/Nobody is perfect in this world...If everthing that we do, goes so perfectly, do u think we have problems??No ryte...

Perfect Couple..

how do u define them as a perfect couple??how do u know that they're perfect for each other??

It alwez made me think...cana boleh org ckp they're perfect for each other ah?? How do u rate d perfectness atu kan??thru their looks?? *sigh* i don't even know why this things came across my mind and it has been camping in my head for several days dah...i have yet to find the answers...(people pls helep me puhlezzz....!!!)

A fren of mine called me and told me that she's planning to get married in 2008...so i said "owww k....!!good for u!!"...it means next year 2007, she'll be making preparation for her wedding...with the help of her frens such as Me..and a few others...hehehe...gerenti paning ni oleh me!!! For sure!!!....but i wish her all the best lah...it's good making early preps..jgn kelam kabut ani...nda bisai...(apa kan merepek ani??!!)

My sis have been having probz wif "boy" nya...hehehe..apa kan tu??Stail lama jua cakap "boy" nya!! I heard this frm him coz ia komplen tht my sis slalu salah hantar msg...kdg-kdg arh boy nya yng lain!!! My Goshhh!!! atu old school punya term tu eh...zaman kami pun nda pakai...hehehe...so every now n then me an my sis will alwez say "boy" nya...~apa kan!!!

Am so very sure, by next week the Brunei International Airport will be packed again...Orang naik Haji so.., bnyk tah jua org kan di liat...Yng kan belayar ke negri lain pun mcm payah jua...gerenti sibok and inda lagi cukup parking ni krg....*going for Haj is soooo siok...* For those yng pernah will sure paham my term of siok....

Anyway...the word perfect is still in my head...

let me dream (dirim!!) about it...

nitey nite!!!

*muahz*

wnt to feel good...better..

It feels so good if ur in d mood for everthing..anything...(whatever u do will alwez be ryte..!!)but...if ur not in d mood..my gosh!!satu dunia we salah kan!!

Sometime, u feel so good if everyone around u knows wht u went thru..but then again...ada jua org yng "buat" inda paham...

Is it wrong to expect something from others??or just don't expect anyting!! (ntah lah ah!!sometime payah jua if ter-over expect ani!!)but..if u don't expect anythin, nuthin will hppn...

Sometimes u wish d person wif u will alwez be there for you...,but then again.., if 24x7 kan bersama saja sanak jua ah!! u'll need time for yourself jua...a breathing space..but then again..u'll start to miss him/her jua...

whtever hppn thru life is sometime cool..u see loads of things happened..good ones...bad ones...but why does orang will alwez remember the bad ones dulu than the good ones??

how soon do u appreciate whatever things being done for u?that soon??

Can u see the difference, if u do things with ur heart or your brain?some people will say "follow what's in ur heart"..but some will say "think before u do sumthin"...so which one?

Some people think it's good to cry it out..let it out than keeping it to urself...but then..once u start to share it..sumthin else will happen...u'll find out that he/she tells a different version of ur story...

How can u make he/she understand u??how can u make he/she believes u??

these are the things that i think is in everyone's mind...wht do u think?True??

Loads in my mind...need to go out....*sigh*

...neglected??!!...

hey peeps...

It's been a while tht i didn't update my blog...bukan kerana saya malas but it's just tht...my time was fully used-up doing interesting things...huhuhu...(believe me!!)..

Have been busy with my aunt's function (makan-makan wah!!) then i was doing a few things for my mum's family...uurrgghh....

How often do u think a woman goes to Hair Salom?? So I went yesterday..somewhere in kb..and believe it or not there's this tomboy was shouting across the room before ia kan keluar telling the hairdresser to makesure girlfren nya atu lawa...(walaupun!!)...duuhhh kan...this "lady" (yng tomboy ani!!) is so damn skinny...and my gosh...org pun inda takut kan ia..I couldn't help it but look at her...and i get the jelingan yng membari kambang bulu...(huhu!!) inda plng ia kan mengurat me lah ah...Yikes!!!!

AM now at my aunt's plce..and infront of her house ada this lagoon where u can see all sorts of peeps exercising...As mentioned by our fren Jack.., brunei people do exercise!!! You can see all different sizes of people exercising...They're trying to keep fit...I'm glad tht we are sooo health concious....With all the penyakit and everything, it really scares us, huh!!!...I used to go for aero...it's like 4 times a week...but not anymore...(not tht i don't want to...) U feel good once u started to sweat.... but then..kdg-kdg i felt tht the more u exercise, the more u makan...kenapa kan tu ah??? And sometime, people will think tht inda apa makan banyak..sama jua exercise....(apa kan!!)......And the other thing that i realised is that, lapas exercise..ada tah yng makan...panuh restaurant....especially arah Amanah Harith yng di jerudong..selalu di penuhi dgn orang frm Shahbandar...hehehe...cali jua sometime ah!!

So.., what have u peeps been up to??

I'll have to continue with wht am doin now...I'll catch up wif u dudes ltr...

..gd byeeee.....

* muahzz*

hari sasak kan service dst...

do u guys realised that the service today is so damn menyakit kan hati kitani semua??I have been receiving msgs mcm balik2...the same one lagi tu..boring jua baca tu...pikir tah dari siapa kah..hehehe....as if~~~..

Just got back from KB..kami ada mkn2 cikit arah my aunt...was there since afternoon..Jalan jua lah wif my lil cuz [B]..ia kan bali vcd barbie...so "we" (me n her!!)went to the soon lee yng masih lagi baru di kb ato..she's only 5 and my gosh...kids nowadays ya...pandai ia mencari d mana tempat cartoon...so we bght crita Barbie The 12 Dancing Princesses..and satu lagi was the Barbie 3in1 dvd...ada crita Rapunzel, Nutcracker and Swan Lake..(i was abt to type sawan lake..apakan...!!)Sekali as soon as sampai rumah.., kami liat...bersama..ada plng additional penonton yng mulutnya inda beranti becakap...tapi kan..crita yng bertitle 12 dancing princesses atu siok..kami liat separuh saja..psal kan ke rumah sebalah lagi...hehehe...so esok boleh sambung frm whr i left off...

So d rumah yng sebalah..(bisai ni my aunt n uncle ani..dorg tinggal sebalah menyebalah..arh perumahan di Kpg Pandan ah!!)I was tolong-ing them cleaning the house coz baru siap betambah..pindah kan things...and macam2 lah aktibiti yng berlaku di dlm rumah yng masih luas atu....mkn was good..(not that i ate bnyk le..!!)

Btw, i met one of my fwen masa di soon lee...so, kami crita n crita n crita sampai my lil cuz naik bosan...it was so clear that ia boring berabiz..and complaining "batah eh"...sangal- lah kaki nya...huh??kenapa ia mcm ani??Tapi sudah kami balik...gembira ia...n tanya siapa lah....ada2 saja kan...

Oh well...saya mahu tidur lah...pasal esok bangun awal lah...am playing golf wif my aunt...di panaga..(walking kali tu ah!!)So..wish me luck...hehe..mcm tah tournament...

soooo all good people...gd nyte...selamat malam...

*muahz...*

a bit of dissatisfaction

heelllllooooo....

Been out the whole day...went off to kb arh my aunt and my uncle and my grannies...Hehehe..(siok kan if you r to stay very dakat!!) Said my goodbyes to them berkali-kali and yet balum jua balik...hehehe...my cuz [W] joined us back to my place...coz i'll be goin there again esok..to help out and make preparations for Saturday....It is so cool when families berkumpul...the atmosphere of riuhness is alwez there....(mcm if u don't like the riuhness then tinggal lah di hutan...hehehe!!)

Went over to my uncle's place and end-up watching dvd/vcd with my Cuz [R] and one of his very good fwen [A] (he likes to argue with me ni!!Banartah!!!) and I supported when he said the vcd tht we r watching is lame..(it was soooo lame!!)..Yup!!we watched about all this killings/death scene...and ada lagi tht guy who shot himself infront of press...eeuukkhhh berabiz-rabiz....ada lagi yng jahat tu..there's one scene dorg sepak terajang this guy sampai mati...and tau sudah mati tu ah...masih lagi dorg terajang and ada yng sanggup buang a very very big batu arah nya...kejam jua tu kan....

Am a bit sad today coz less msg-ing with my Man..he's prolly busy lah...but altho how utterly busy u are.., there's alwez time to txt me...well, at least I was in KB...had a bit of fun though....;p

*It's raining here...with guruh..and also lightnings....*

My sis [R] msgd me tonite just to tell me tht she nada suara...Huh??...good idea woman..txt me...at least i know wht u r up to...

Let me ask u people one thing...what is the difference with complaining and disagreeing?? For all i know, u'll voice out both, ryte...so wht's the difference??ntah ah...to me mcm both the same plng...but correct me if am wrong...pls...pls...pls...

I'll be goin off to KB esok...and will stay there till malam...maybe...but should not balik very very late...

I was surprised my sis [R] went and watch movie..Casino Royale...I heard a few comments on the radio yesterday...ada lah yng ckp that the woman atu not as sexy lah...mau Halle Berry lah...and the bond was not as "bond"...am not sure if i ever get to watch this movie...or else wait for the dvd saja...ada plng sudah yng inda tawang lah...cinema punya le....nampak tu kepala-kepala para penonton yng inda tau tht they rugi so much...hehehe...

am tired ehh...banartah...for sure i'll sleep the whole morning (AGAIN!!)...today saja i woke up early..(cheh!!tah karang..well earlier than the usual!!)

anyhoots...i'll say goodbye for now...and gd nyte!!!

..cherios kiddos...

....*muahzzzz*....

feeling good

hey there....

It feels so good when ur happy....

I was online with my man last-nyte..till abt 12ish...kesian him coz must wake up early lagi...but he didn't have any probs abt that coz ia awal jua bangun and off to work early..and had bfast jua wif his colleagues...and then he came over to see me...sekajap saja lah..coz kan kraja lagi...Thanks dear, for dropping by altho skjap saja...It was nice seeing you....Btw, he got his hair cut...n tht was during the weekend...biar tah me inda tau lah ah...so I told him tht am goin to get my hair straighten...and he said "yes"...after persuading him...

My man told me that he's goin off for a business trip to Spore, maybe next week..wanted to bring me but....sekajap jua saja tu...n anyway...he'll be busy jua...so i don't want to make matters worst nanti whn we are there...krg me complaint that he doesn't spend so much time with me lah...n many many more...so, i decided to stay saja...bagus kan me atu..but....(there's alwez a but!!)...hehehe....(only me & my man knows abt this...hehehe...!!)

I have been spending the whole afternoon in my room wif my sis [A] and my bro jua...Cool huh!!A fren of mine called...and guess what???ia ckp me ani membebel+++...WHATEVER!!!(it's soooo not true!!!) Called my bitch [J]..but she was busy at work..so will call again ltr...

At least today me bangun awal a bit...nda mcm selalu nya lah ah...ahir brabiz...and went to fetch my sis frm school jua...coz she msgd me to ambil her...then back home do nothin...(of coz..think of my man le!!!)

Anywoos..that's abt all for today...I'll be back again to update...

Won't be gone for long....

See u esok kiddos...

*muahz*

the start of the week

helloo...

Just woke up an hour ago...(nuthin to be proud of coz i knw half the morning is gone!!)..hehehe...

Guess What??!!?? My man msg me lastnyte...and i was soooooo HAPPY...brabiz-rabiz...and then this morning he did his usuals which is msg me then call me....how shweet is that?? (I was still asleep of coz!!)..I miss u too, dear...It was good to know that we are still "US"...(no one could understand this...i guess..*wonders*..)

Stayed up very late lastnite...was online and msn-ing wif Cuzs & cool dudes (fwenz)....oh ya!!and also my Bro!!(sorry...terlupa...!!) Lady White'Z' was so sanak coz connection nya few times disconnected...mcm ech time after she replied she'll go missing...How's that??Not cool, huh..!!

(am now msning wif sis [R])

Sunday..I stayed home all day..didn't even jalan keluar frm d house...Uda was here...she was talking wif mum regd her mkn2 this saturday night...am suppose to help them out with everything...i do kesian them..so mum said just do whatever i can.....

Nothing much happening today...don't have anythin planned...Nothing in my calendar entries...except for waiting for my man...

Dear..,
It was nice to know whatever is in the msg that u sent me lastnyte...and hearing u today.., I was so happy...

well kiddos....adios amigos....

...*flying kisses*...

...congrats...

hey there...

how's everybody doin on a Sunday??....

i watched this malay movie smlm...very very sad...and that made me stayed up till late and i was online while watching tv...Chatted wif my cuz [E]...then wif lady white'Z....wanted to update my blog but then...the feeling of laziness arise...(hehehe..apakan??!!)

Congrats to Shades and Lady White'Z on their engagement....So when is the Big Day??all of us is expecting a big treat from u both...hehehe....We r happy for u guys...

I have been at home most of the time...waiting for my man to msg me...call me...but...NADA!!!Believe me.., I have not heard from him since friday..!!Sent him a few msgs but no reply...~What am i suppose to do?? I am sad...very very sad.....~ the same thing happened again....

Woke up wif a bit of headache & heartache...had probz kan tidur lastnyte..I was tossing and turning myself...tidur pun payah (is this bcoz of the missing thingy??)..had a bit of brasin2..ended up having running-nose...then..with the help of dreaming ..tarus tidur...

Was online this morning with Lady white'Z, goTTie and 2 of my cuzs whom at that time was at ICC...Lady white'Z is so nervous about the whole thing...still making a bit of preps coz this aftnoon, sister-nya pun betunang jua...and their's will be malam...hehe..how cool is that??having 2 functions in 1 day..!!

Sis [R] was out with 2 of my frenz lastnyte..melepak di Portview..they tried to contact me but my HP was off...*sebenarnya mana off but due to poor reception*..hehehe...ws not updated till wht time ia hang out wif them..maybe next time lah...can't go next week coz ada function arah my Uda's place...so need to help them lah...nda kan datang mcm jemputan...

oh well...i need to do sumthin now..try to make full use of my sunday!!..eventho me nda tau wht to do!!...

good bye kiddos....!!

whr have u been?

hey dudes...

(no pics to share with you peeps...sorry!!)

I went to the open house yesterday...it was quite good..we stayed till 8ish..and that was from 4ish...(see lah how people can waste their time...then say all the things about how time flies!!)..hehehe...Good that the hosts was not bored to death for having us around...The boys were busying with their league....(ada prize lagi tu!!)..thanks to the hostess...!!!

Food was good...I like her cake...the choco thingy...it was soooooo chocolatie berabiz....(i need to get the recipe from her and see if i can make the same thing..hehehe!!)there was fresh fruits as well....and loads of other food...

To the host and hostess...Thanks for inviting us...thanks for the good food...thanks for your time layaning us....

I've been missing my man to loads.....have not been sms-ing me...or even call me...he did msgd me yesterday...but then that was it...asked my cuz [F] if he saw him at work..but worst..my cuz jarang see him...instead he mentioned abt their Raya Open Office..(bukan house!!)...Whr have you been my dearest??

am goin out with mum...we're goin to kb!!to see my grannies....(Yipee!!!)

till thn kiddos....tbc ltr...!!!

*muahz*

segalanya bermula lagi...Open House!!!

hey peeps...

Today is just another day...weekend is coming up....(do u ppl realised how fast time flies??)

Anyhoos...,I've planned what i have to do for today...nuthin much tho...woke up just b4 midday (no wonder lah time flies so fast...half the morning i was still (still!!!) asleep...hehehe..)

Called up my sis [R]...called cuz [A]...and made arrangement to meet up sumwhr before melanggar rumah our fwen...yng ada Close Raya Open House *scratches head*...chatted wif her last nyte and asked for today's menu.

~me~: sudah buat preps for esok?
~J~: sudah dari tadi...mengalih eh...
~me~: wht food are we getting?
~J~: rumput and kayu....
~me~: WHAT??? bbq kali ni...(confident wah!!)
~J~: no lah...just simple food...
~me~: hmm..juz prepare whatever food and mkesure it's enuf to feed loads of hungry ppl...hehehe...

(thn she said ia kan offline coz kan dangani bf-nya main game!!...Huh??)-Woman!!u have to mke preps lah not main game!!....

I wonder if there is such people who would do or prepare sumthin really light...finger food...and i wonder if ada org buat mcm standing reception *angan2 a bit*...but then come to think of it...malays won't do that...u see even bbq pun mesti ada duduk...we r not really into this thing whr standing will take place....banar tah...Yeah!!it's the culture....

During our open house, I told mum to prepare simple food saja..but dad came up with an even brilliant idea...lunch different food...aft-tea different food...OMG!!!mengalih kali ah....lucky thing there was help lah from my aunts....enuf of all this...

I have to get myself ready now...or else batah my cuz tunngu....(as i said..Woman will alwez take their sweetest time to get ready!!)-bnyk bini2 agree ni....

Will take some pics and post it ltr...

till then.....cherios Kiddos...!!

....things to do....

Hey u...

..woke up a bit early today (thanks my man...for bangun kan me!!) as i have to go to KB and settle a few things for myself..Went out with Lil Sis [A]~she is so happy abt the goin out thingy...skulah nda mau..just bcoz ada rentas desa...pemalas ehh!!!..thn i also msg my Usu to dangan kan jua (this is b4 i went in for shower..so that ia awal bangun and by the time me sampai ia sudah ready!!)...if only i could bring the whole family..i would!!!but thn..bhapa tah jua berangkut..!!

(am msn-ing wif hary (cuz's bf) ryte now....)

Mum just came in and left my room...she's up to sumthin..uurrgghh...

So, when i reached my grannies place, told lil sis to naik and call my usu....skali she came back and told me "ka, usu masih lagi tdur!!"...so terpaksa lah kami tunggu ia...batah kali ah...(woman, alwez...alwez..take their time kan get ready..!!) mum's fav quote "..kan lakas jadi lambat!!.." I love hearing that from mum...!!!hehehe...

Oh ya!! we also went for minum jua..i've been craving for fried noodles...but the one i had tadi was not that good..!!lucky thing i shared wif lil sis (this is good!!save cost and supaya inda membazir!!hehehe....my bestfren [J] called jua while kami minum...nda mau betinggal ni..,tapi ia kraja tadi so inda tah dpt join us...

...it's been a while that i didn't go out for mkn wif my Man!!....(he's been very busy!!ia ada course jua wah..!!)

oh well...received an invitation for this friday, it's an open house invitation...btw,is there such thing as "Closing Raya Open House"?? this is so new...i have to cari dangan kan ke sana....coz they came to my house hari atu...hari raya also have to reciprocate ah....whatever!!....

well kiddos..., i need to do sumthin now...!!

Till then....toooodle looo....!!!!

1st Day

hey u...

had mood swings for the past few days...don't know why!!! Was hoping to see my man..but..he has been very busy to the max..(don't get me wrong, i understand...(Sometimes!!)

Have been reading a my frenz blogs so i decided to create one for myself....(let's just hope and pray that me rajin like everyone of the bloggers to update)...hehehe...

Was siboking myself while my lil sis [A] msn-ing and updating her friendster..OMG!!She's still a kid...but...hey, it's 2006 now..every kid now owns everything from handphones (yng canggih lagi tu!!!) to u knw lah...(list can go on and on and on...)

Let's just post this and am off to bed......

till then....cherios kiddos....